Other peoples lives...

Sometimes I think it is sooo much better to not run into someone and get caught up. I find that I enjoy my fantasies of how their lives have been are so comforting. I mean there is that initial gush of oh wow how are you then you are left feeling either really impressed and like ,'well heck what have I been doing' or just like... 'OK so that's all?' I know my life has the same reaction on other people. Sometimes I feel bad that I didn't stay in touch and therefore have been left out of their loop and probably missed some really cool things or I feel bad that I experienced something that in hindsight would have been so great to share with them. So my solution...just avoid everyone, then my hopes and dreams for all will remain intact.:> just kidding. (sort of) It is really hard to keep up with everyone that you'd like to keep up with though, our lives may seem tedious at times but we are all so busy living them that it is often hard to squeeze in that extra email, or card just to say HI, how are ya, took, a trip, got a dog, was sick cut my hair,learned a language whatever. I know I am not at a place where I can send out the annual newsletter with pictures and updates too planned for me I guess, maybe I will do it here, post with pics and updates and ramblings and if anyone is looking for me they will find it and be caught up and we never even have to smile and have that awkward silence that comes after all of the catching up has happened. Hey in advance, I tend to go stream of conscious and my stream can get muddy and have many tributaries, so you've been warned.

Reality Check

So do all 10 year old boys think they are like your mini me? Let me clarify, like do they all think that they can tell their younger sibs what to do just because they think they know what you would want them to do...." You girls go to sleep now! No more playing...stop making all that noise!" Now granted that was what I wanted to say but what makes him think that he is in a position to tell them what to do? did I ask him? Did his dad ask him? ...'Say son, were not sure how to handle getting these girls to bed, could you handle it for us... we'd be so grateful'....In his dreams.
I need to ask these questions in hopes that I am not alone in my search for sanity. I think they my kids, are very cool people .I need to make that very clear, but I have to admit that I never knew an 8 year old girl could scream as loudly as mine can. And apparently my 4 year old thinks we are a family of super heroes because she is absolutely fearless, I swear one day I am going to miss it when she is vaulting backwards off my bed into my arms and we will both be in for a shock. I think I am prompted to write this now because I am returning to school, well sort of I will be going via distance but I also home school and sometimes I just need to talk to a grownup to keep some perspective. so bear with me and I will try and keep it light. I know you are not really here but it beats talking to myself in the corner and who knows, maybe you are out there...watching me....

Ok I love them but....

My kids are very cool people as individuals but put them together and sometimes I just want to farm them out...more later KOS (kid over shoulder)